Updated: Jul 1, 2019
Hello family and friends.
Thank you for your continuous support as I continue to write these chapters of my life adventures.
Tonight is part 4.
I have been thinking for awhile now and come to realize that I cannot keep dwelling on the past and that I cannot change what happened. The feeling of emptyness has not dissolved. I continue to trace back to the day I wanted to take my own life. My life long desire is to lead a productive life so I can achieve my goals. I want to make my dreams into a reality without guidance,, mentors and assistance. I sometimes feel that the tools I have learned over the years cannot be executed. There is a part of me that wants to give up and just end everything. But I can't! Some where deep down inside I always find the will to get back up again. I will continue to live my best life possible.